WELCOME TO THE THUNDERDOME

This morning I found out that if things stay the way they are right now that I will only be able to see my partner once a month for the next two years. At first I got really upset, but then I told myself that this is the life that I chose and that once a month I’m just going to have to have a stressful day in order to ultimately get what I want in the end. Sometimes I can deal with the stress of my long distance relationship, but on days like this I feel like I’m going to throw up and then my head will explode. We haven’t been able to speak since Thursday, but it feels like we haven’t spoken since last month; it’s strange what a toll not speaking to each other can take on the both of us. I can only imagine how he’s feeling right now, hopefully he’s keeping it together better than I am. I just find it difficult to find distractions from my stress because I get into this rut of despair and fatigue, which obviously makes it hard to do anything. I’m planning on not only cleaning, but cleaning out my room today (i.e getting rid of shit I haven’t touched in ages). Hopefully a clear bedroom will equal to a clear state of mind.